• Being an MD,  Life story,  Post in Indonesian,  Thoughts

    It’s Okay Not To Be Okay

    English version please click here. Karena ternyata banyak yang merespons post terakhir saya tentang kesehatan mental beberapa hari lalu, saya jadi pengen berbagi tentang pengalaman bagaimana akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk menjalani psikoterapi dengan seorang psikolog di Jerman. Karena postingan ini akan panjang, saya akan bagi ke dalam beberapa bagian: Apa sebenarnya definisi „burn out“ dan pengalaman pribadi saya mengalami „burn out“. Bagaimana prosedur terbaik untuk mendapatkan terapi yang tepat, khususnya untuk teman – teman di negara Jerman. Prosedur pendukung di tempat kerja pasca psikoterapi: rekomendasi saya terkait dengan profesi saya sebagai dokter kesehatan tenaga kerja. Keinginan untuk menulis tentang hal ini sebenarnya sudah terpendam lama, karena banyak teman atau kenalan…

  • Being an MD,  Life story,  Thoughts

    The pursuit of happiness (3): the beauty of deceleration.

    I was taking a break. When writing, that was supposed to ease my mind, was becoming too exhausting and demanding, I had to stop. So I stopped.. for a while. And now here I am again.   I remembered the first session, how my therapist asked me,”what brings you here? Tell me what has been bothering you”. The room was warm and cozy, her voice was so calm and the atmosphere so peacefully silent. And suddenly the dam broke and my words flushed uncontrollably. She just listened. And after I was finished, she said,”I’m so glad that you are here. I bet it wasn’t easy to let your guard down…

  • Being an MD,  Life story,  Thoughts

    The pursuit of happiness (1): burning out and crashing down.

    This is a very personal story. I wasn’t sure to publish this note. But after some years of practicing medicine I realized, that there are so many physicians out there who might be in the same trouble.. It is no longer a secret, that health care jobs are associated with psychological problems and that there are far more cases than the published numbers. I would write this story in multiple parts, because otherwise it would be too long and boring. I do hope, that this story doesn’t end here.. Because I still believe, that as long as it not good, it is not the end yet. Writing has helped me…