• Being a mom

    This isn‘t about me..

    These past few weeks I‘ve been handling difficult cases at my work. Especially today, a patient has reminded me again of how priviledged I have been. Everyday is indeed a struggle for me to wake up, go to work and bring my little one to the nursery. Aurélie has been toughing it up by staying in the nursery from early in the morning until late afternoon. Thank God she is healthy and that she enjoys her days with her bestfriends. I cherish every minute of the day that I have with Aurélie. But yes, 24 hours a day seem to be just not sufficient for all the things I want…

  • Being a mom

    Vlog Episode 3: Jaga Malam Pertama Andina! Pilih yang Mana: Uniklinik atau RS Pelayanan untuk Residensi?

    Kali ini giliran Andina yang cerita tentang pengalaman dia waktu jaga malam pertama di Medizinische Hochschule Hannover. Terus kita juga ngejelasin, apa sih bedanya residensi di RS universitas (Uniklinik), residensi di rumah sakit pelayanan atau residensi di tempat praktek dokter. Mudah-mudahan bermanfaat buat teman – teman dan kolega dari Indonesia yang berpikir untuk residensi di Jerman ya! Have fun watching and stay tuned! Kalau ada yang masih mau ditanyain, jangan ragu untuk ngehubungi kita yaa! Facebook: Our Doctor’s Diary Instagram: Our_Doctors_Diary

  • Being a mom

    Vlog Episode 2: Our First Day of Work at a German Hospital

    Akhirnya setelah pause lamaa sejak video perdana kita tahun lalu, kita bisa lagi upload video baru. Kali ini kita mau bercerita tentang pengalaman kita di hari – hari pertama kerja di rumah sakit. Have fun and stay tuned! If you have any questions about medical study in Germany or anything about living in Germany, please don’t hesitate to contact us! Either through the comment box, Email or Instagram. See you! Love Pandora & Andina Email: kafeezeit.ndona@gmail.com Instagram: our_doctors_diary Website: www.momsdiary.de

  • Being a mom,  Being an MD,  Thoughts

    It’s Okay Not to Be Okay (English Version)

    Indonesian version please click here. I am very honored to get good responses on my last posting about mental health in the occasion of world mental health day a couple days ago. My non-Indonesian speaking friends have been asking me, why I only wrote my last post in Indonesian. Since I also want to share my story with my non-Indonesian speaking friends and readers, here it is 🙂 A lot of friends inspired me to write down my very personal experience with burn out and how I finally decided to get a psychotherapy in Germany. Before I begin, I must warn you that this post will be pretty long. But…

  • Being a mom,  Thoughts

    Mommy on contemplation: when sleeping ritual is successful but a me-time suddenly doesn’t seem so necessary

    It’s almost 10 p.m. now and Aurélie has been sleeping. Clemens is on his ski trip with his clique and suddenly I feel so lonely. This is actually a perfect chance for a me-time..or for Netflix-binge. But I suddenly don’t feel like it.. I miss my baby. Although she’s only five meters away in her room. My 5 months-old baby has grown up.. She’s obviously been feeling secure enough, now that she really can fall asleep in her own bed in her own room. It was my goal..as the nights seemed so long. In the first month, Aurélie could only sleep while breastfeeding or if we bounced her on the…

  • Being an MD,  Culture,  Life story,  Thoughts

    The pursuit of happiness (2): New Year’s Resolution: Do more of what makes you happy!

    It was not easy making the phone calls to get a psychologist. My pride was hurt, deeply. At some point I tried to tell myself, even physicians get burn out and depressive phases. That is a common secret. And even if you think -as a physician- you know what you are having, there are times when you have to realize that you can’t treat yourself. But it is always easier saying than doing. Just in front of the chair in my therapist’s office, there is a big framed picture with this motto “DO MORE OF WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY”. I then decided to write and make documentations about things that make me happy,…

  • Being an MD,  Life story,  Thoughts

    The pursuit of happiness (1): burning out and crashing down.

    This is a very personal story. I wasn’t sure to publish this note. But after some years of practicing medicine I realized, that there are so many physicians out there who might be in the same trouble.. It is no longer a secret, that health care jobs are associated with psychological problems and that there are far more cases than the published numbers. I would write this story in multiple parts, because otherwise it would be too long and boring. I do hope, that this story doesn’t end here.. Because I still believe, that as long as it not good, it is not the end yet. Writing has helped me…