• Being a mom

    This isn‘t about me..

    These past few weeks I‘ve been handling difficult cases at my work. Especially today, a patient has reminded me again of how priviledged I have been. Everyday is indeed a struggle for me to wake up, go to work and bring my little one to the nursery. Aurélie has been toughing it up by staying in the nursery from early in the morning until late afternoon. Thank God she is healthy and that she enjoys her days with her bestfriends. I cherish every minute of the day that I have with Aurélie. But yes, 24 hours a day seem to be just not sufficient for all the things I want…

  • Being a mom

    Vlog Episode 3: Jaga Malam Pertama Andina! Pilih yang Mana: Uniklinik atau RS Pelayanan untuk Residensi?

    Kali ini giliran Andina yang cerita tentang pengalaman dia waktu jaga malam pertama di Medizinische Hochschule Hannover. Terus kita juga ngejelasin, apa sih bedanya residensi di RS universitas (Uniklinik), residensi di rumah sakit pelayanan atau residensi di tempat praktek dokter. Mudah-mudahan bermanfaat buat teman – teman dan kolega dari Indonesia yang berpikir untuk residensi di Jerman ya! Have fun watching and stay tuned! Kalau ada yang masih mau ditanyain, jangan ragu untuk ngehubungi kita yaa! Facebook: Our Doctor’s Diary Instagram: Our_Doctors_Diary

  • Being a mom

    Vlog Episode 2: Our First Day of Work at a German Hospital

    Akhirnya setelah pause lamaa sejak video perdana kita tahun lalu, kita bisa lagi upload video baru. Kali ini kita mau bercerita tentang pengalaman kita di hari – hari pertama kerja di rumah sakit. Have fun and stay tuned! If you have any questions about medical study in Germany or anything about living in Germany, please don’t hesitate to contact us! Either through the comment box, Email or Instagram. See you! Love Pandora & Andina Email: kafeezeit.ndona@gmail.com Instagram: our_doctors_diary Website: www.momsdiary.de

  • Being a mom,  Being an MD,  Thoughts

    It’s Okay Not to Be Okay (English Version)

    Indonesian version please click here. I am very honored to get good responses on my last posting about mental health in the occasion of world mental health day a couple days ago. My non-Indonesian speaking friends have been asking me, why I only wrote my last post in Indonesian. Since I also want to share my story with my non-Indonesian speaking friends and readers, here it is 🙂 A lot of friends inspired me to write down my very personal experience with burn out and how I finally decided to get a psychotherapy in Germany. Before I begin, I must warn you that this post will be pretty long. But…

  • Being an MD

    A Piece of Thought on World Mental Health Day

    I remember exactly that this time around two years ago I was struggling with a burn out and a depressive episode. Being a physician myself I saw these cases almost daily. Until I experienced it on my own, I actually never realized what kind of impacts this disease has over someone, his/her life and his/her surroundings.   One of the best decisions I have made in my life was to pick up the phone and reach out for a professional help.    I took a time out, had a structured conversation with a psychotherapist, spoke out and phrased all of the disturbing factors.    The most important of all was…

  • Being a mom,  Life story

    Mommy’s Circle: How Does Your Baby Sleep at Daytime?

    This is probably THE question that new mommies always hear and also ask. Well at least this is my experience in Germany.. I’m not very sure how it is in Indonesia, whether this topic is also interesting among new mommies (calling out indonesian mommies! I’d love to hear your insight :)) After the puerperium (around 6 weeks after birth) I was finally able to go out again. Well, I already did some short walks around the block before, but in Germany mommies after birth get their official “green light” after the gynaecological check up, which usually takes place 6 weeks after birth. (Short info: once you get your green light,…

  • Being a mom,  Thoughts

    Mommy on contemplation: when sleeping ritual is successful but a me-time suddenly doesn’t seem so necessary

    It’s almost 10 p.m. now and Aurélie has been sleeping. Clemens is on his ski trip with his clique and suddenly I feel so lonely. This is actually a perfect chance for a me-time..or for Netflix-binge. But I suddenly don’t feel like it.. I miss my baby. Although she’s only five meters away in her room. My 5 months-old baby has grown up.. She’s obviously been feeling secure enough, now that she really can fall asleep in her own bed in her own room. It was my goal..as the nights seemed so long. In the first month, Aurélie could only sleep while breastfeeding or if we bounced her on the…

  • Being a mom,  Life story,  Photography,  Travel

    Mommy on trip: Traveling With A Newborn – Baby Winter Essentials

    Some friends have been asking, what we had for our baby when we were traveling in winter.. In this post, I’d like to share our first winter travel experience 🙂 Our first trip after the birth of Aurélie was Walchensee, which is a natural lake south of Munich. At that time Aurélie just turned 8 weeks old. Winter striked in a full force at that time, but we didn’t just want to stay home nevertheless. As Clemens always said to me, „there is no such thing as bad weather.. there is merely bad clothing“.. Yeah, sometimes my German husband doesn’t really have the understanding for my indonesian warm blood 😀…

  • Being a mom,  Life story,  Thoughts,  Travel

    Mommy on indulgence: A Throwback to Our First Two Months..

    Four months postpartum.. Many nights, days and intentions later, I can finally bring myself to write again. There have been so many random words swimming in the back of my head. Due to other priorities and lack of sleep, my head seems to be not in a status, where it’s able to structuring these random words into one proper paragraph. Since le hubby is jogging with the small one, mommy has more or less one and half hour of indulgence time. This indulgence time is usually filled with cleaning the house or cooking and an express shower. But not today. Today (after miraculously 8 hours of sleep!) my head seems…

  • Being an MD,  Life story,  Thoughts

    The pursuit of happiness (3): the beauty of deceleration.

    I was taking a break. When writing, that was supposed to ease my mind, was becoming too exhausting and demanding, I had to stop. So I stopped.. for a while. And now here I am again.   I remembered the first session, how my therapist asked me,”what brings you here? Tell me what has been bothering you”. The room was warm and cozy, her voice was so calm and the atmosphere so peacefully silent. And suddenly the dam broke and my words flushed uncontrollably. She just listened. And after I was finished, she said,”I’m so glad that you are here. I bet it wasn’t easy to let your guard down…