• Being a mom

    This isn‘t about me..

    These past few weeks I‘ve been handling difficult cases at my work. Especially today, a patient has reminded me again of how priviledged I have been. Everyday is indeed a struggle for me to wake up, go to work and bring my little one to the nursery. Aurélie has been toughing it up by staying in the nursery from early in the morning until late afternoon. Thank God she is healthy and that she enjoys her days with her bestfriends. I cherish every minute of the day that I have with Aurélie. But yes, 24 hours a day seem to be just not sufficient for all the things I want…

  • Being a mom,  Being an MD,  Thoughts

    It’s Okay Not to Be Okay (English Version)

    Indonesian version please click here. I am very honored to get good responses on my last posting about mental health in the occasion of world mental health day a couple days ago. My non-Indonesian speaking friends have been asking me, why I only wrote my last post in Indonesian. Since I also want to share my story with my non-Indonesian speaking friends and readers, here it is 🙂 A lot of friends inspired me to write down my very personal experience with burn out and how I finally decided to get a psychotherapy in Germany. Before I begin, I must warn you that this post will be pretty long. But…

  • Being an MD,  Life story,  Post in Indonesian,  Thoughts

    It’s Okay Not To Be Okay

    English version please click here. Karena ternyata banyak yang merespons post terakhir saya tentang kesehatan mental beberapa hari lalu, saya jadi pengen berbagi tentang pengalaman bagaimana akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk menjalani psikoterapi dengan seorang psikolog di Jerman. Karena postingan ini akan panjang, saya akan bagi ke dalam beberapa bagian: Apa sebenarnya definisi „burn out“ dan pengalaman pribadi saya mengalami „burn out“. Bagaimana prosedur terbaik untuk mendapatkan terapi yang tepat, khususnya untuk teman – teman di negara Jerman. Prosedur pendukung di tempat kerja pasca psikoterapi: rekomendasi saya terkait dengan profesi saya sebagai dokter kesehatan tenaga kerja. Keinginan untuk menulis tentang hal ini sebenarnya sudah terpendam lama, karena banyak teman atau kenalan…

  • Being an MD

    A Piece of Thought on World Mental Health Day

    I remember exactly that this time around two years ago I was struggling with a burn out and a depressive episode. Being a physician myself I saw these cases almost daily. Until I experienced it on my own, I actually never realized what kind of impacts this disease has over someone, his/her life and his/her surroundings.   One of the best decisions I have made in my life was to pick up the phone and reach out for a professional help.    I took a time out, had a structured conversation with a psychotherapist, spoke out and phrased all of the disturbing factors.    The most important of all was…